It seems that my unhappy time has begun as the meaningless presentations have found their way to me. Based on the experience of last term, group discussion is no more than a waste of time. It lack of efficiency and seldom comes to a useful conclusion. What’s more, it breaks my routine and makes me absentminded.
Take today for example, the time of meeting makes me unhappy because it makes it hard for me to organize my night. However, I suppose what really makes me unhappy is that I can’t see any value in it. I should learn something from it, but I can’t. This meetings drives me crazy, for it can only tell me I will have a lot of invaluable work to do.
There’s news that I will suffer more in April because there will be a two week class which is similar to last term’s. If I’ve really learnt something, I suppose it should be the experience of fighting for mission impossible. It was still my nightmare of finishing such intractable jobs in such a limit of time, and come out with unacceptable result.
My only conclusion is that this is not the class for me. But I can’t wait I see these unacceptable results. I should gain something other than this nightmare. So what should I do? What should I learn from all this? What meaning of these days can I see when I’m old? In my mind, the thing I should learn is not determined by others, but what I want. For instance, in the Business Statistics class, what I should learn is not determine by the teacher, nor by other group mates, but that I want to learn the basic skills of statstics analyzing. Thus, that’s where my attention should be paid to. And all those not related to it should be neglacted. If this unrelated part catch me, I should try to limit my time on it. Therefore, I should keep in mind: what I should gain from all the lessons and discussions is not leadership, not ppt skills, not oral presentation skills, but data analysis ability.
Take today for example, the time of meeting makes me unhappy because it makes it hard for me to organize my night. However, I suppose what really makes me unhappy is that I can’t see any value in it. I should learn something from it, but I can’t. This meetings drives me crazy, for it can only tell me I will have a lot of invaluable work to do.
There’s news that I will suffer more in April because there will be a two week class which is similar to last term’s. If I’ve really learnt something, I suppose it should be the experience of fighting for mission impossible. It was still my nightmare of finishing such intractable jobs in such a limit of time, and come out with unacceptable result.
My only conclusion is that this is not the class for me. But I can’t wait I see these unacceptable results. I should gain something other than this nightmare. So what should I do? What should I learn from all this? What meaning of these days can I see when I’m old? In my mind, the thing I should learn is not determined by others, but what I want. For instance, in the Business Statistics class, what I should learn is not determine by the teacher, nor by other group mates, but that I want to learn the basic skills of statstics analyzing. Thus, that’s where my attention should be paid to. And all those not related to it should be neglacted. If this unrelated part catch me, I should try to limit my time on it. Therefore, I should keep in mind: what I should gain from all the lessons and discussions is not leadership, not ppt skills, not oral presentation skills, but data analysis ability.
