All trivial things these days. I planed everything before the exam, but done seldom. This kind of lazy days are not not happy, but they’re killing me. To much things left to do. I seldom think of home, because I know I’ll have to come back sometime, and what’s waiting for me is tough!
Still an hour and I’ll be on the way to Singapore, but I’m far from exciting now. What I’m thinking of is the following twelve hours which will tire me out.
It’s not a real travel and so I won’t face too many trouble, and I won’t spend a long time there so if there’ll be tough, it will soon go away.
But I not so happy as I thought these days. Everything is not under control. I want to stay alone, but there’s no space for me. I dream that one day, when I have enough money, I will go to a quiet beach and spend a whole day there just looking sun rise and set, without carrying the time that goes by.
The exam days dries me crazy, but these days are no better. I don’t know what I’m doing. Knowing that too much things are left but none can been done is not a good felling. I hope that one day I can lead the life I want, do the job I love and give my life to it. But it’s far from that now. I even don’t know what I want. What I think out in the past session is that never care what the God has set for you, just keep going and one day you will surely find your faid. Or you will just watse your time finding your destine and at last find that destine is never to find, but create.
Ok, I’d better go on pumping up my baggage, or trouble will wait for me.
